Satan's Week

For those of you who don't know, I am on Fremont's Paw Print (newspaper) staff. And I LOVE it. It comes with a lot of stresses I didn't even think were possible, and it's a lot of hard work. But it is all worth it seeing your name on that byline and seeing your article published. Hard work pays off.

This past week was production week. Which basically is putting the paper together. You have to use this amazing-yet hard and stressful-program called InDesign. I thought I would have the patience for it but I really am terrible at it. Luckily, there are staff members that are pros at it and can do it.

Now I'm not an editor-far from it-and they spend hours on end helping and doing things to make sure the paper is put together well and is successful. They are the coolest. There is also our advisor Ms. Morey who is basically all-around the best english teacher/advisor ever. She puts in a lot of time and gets to know us personally.

Anyways, after that spill production week is rough getting everything together. I call it Satan's Week while others call it other choice names. :) But not only in Paw Print did it feel like Satan's Week.

Satan worked on me hard this week. It was real rough. Emotionally draining and me being me and always over thinking and worrying. I felt insecurities about myself that I never have before, I was stressed, tired, cranky, and basically just wanting to fall down at any given moment and just cry.

But I couldn't. I carried on with my week and did what had to be done. Most definitely not patiently, and willingly at times. Sometimes you just need to pick yourself up and just do it.

I couldn't have done it without one person; My Heavenly Father. There were nights that all I could do was just fall to my knees, and I know he would be there to listen. And sometimes that's all I need. Just to talk to him, tell him everything that was going on. But most importantly, thank him for this week of Satan. Trials are rough. They aren't meant to be easy. I'm quite sure that's not the definition of trial. But sometimes it's best to just THANK GOD FOR YOUR TRIALS. Trust me, it helps. There are going to be "Weeks of Satan". He's going to try and drag you down to that misery and endless woe. That's when you just shove the turd away and keep going.

I came across this scripture tonight, and it's keeping me going:
Doctrine and Covenants 122:4
"And although their influence shall cast thee into trouble, and into bars and walls, thou shalt be had in honor; and but for a small moment and thy voice shall be more terrible in the midst of thine enemies than the fierce lion, because of thy righteousness; and thy God shall stand by thee forever and ever. 

This past week of Satan seriously was rough. I wanted so bad for Adam to just come home, so we could have one of our long talks and then just laugh life off afterwards. But just like I have to wait day by day for him to get home, sometimes you have to take the Satan's Week day by day! But hey, a week is 7 days. You got this.

~I'm not really sure who reads this blog or who I really am talking to right now, but I do know that even when your week may feel as though it is Satan's Week, if you would just pray to your Heavenly Father, he will help you with your trials. Satan's Week can basically suck, but it's best to make it Full of Smiles.~