My Best Pal.

This week's post is not my typical one. I usually do after-the-trial or after-the-hard-time kind of update. But not today. This one is going to go on for two years. It's going to hurt and be a sore spot. But I don't want to forget.

HARDEST WEEK EVER.

This past week has undoubtedly been the hardest I've ever had. I don't think I could even fathom how hard it would be. Yes, I had gone through it 4 times prior, but this time was different. As is any experience and trial you go through. And even though I thought I had lost my best pal, I really found him.

Ok now to somewhat lighten the mood, pal is seriously one of the funnest words to say. But really, say it to yourself now. Just under your breath! Or scream it out loud. Whatever floats your goat.

Now that you seem to secretly (or not to secretly) made a fool of yourself, think of your best pal. Someone that can make you laugh when you certainly don't want to, whose smile can brighten your day, who can tell you something you REALLY needed to hear, and was just THERE to help.

That's what happened to me. Almost two years ago, I said "see ya" to my best pal. He went to go serve the Lord and the people of Mexico. And just last Wednesday, I said another "see ya" to my other best pal. He went to serve the Lord and the people of Ecuador. I now get to communicate with my two best pals via email once a week and via phone/skype twice a year. That was the hardest thing I've ever had to do.

I WAS ALONE.

Losing two of your best pals what seems like one right after another is rough. That's exactly how I would explain this past week. It was rough. Not a smooth path or a nice walk. But rough. I felt VERY alone. People would say they understood how I felt, but I felt NOBODY could understand. They didn't know what it was like. They hadn't been through my particular situation and felt the loneliness I had felt. I have done what seems like I've always supposed to. I'm not a perfect person but I love the gospel. But I had been left alone. I didn't understand why this was happening, I didn't understand why I was alone. But I wasn't.

I WASN'T ALONE.

The very person I was angry at for leaving me and forcing me to live what seemed like a nightmare, actually helped me. My Heavenly Father. And you know what he did? He sent His son. But he knew that I would hurt and feel lonely now, so he sent him long ago. And my Savior, Brother, Jesus Christ knows EXACTLY how I feel. Because he once, suffered for my sins. He once felt the pain, hurt, and sorrow I felt saying "see ya" to my two best pals. Because, my other brother; Jesus Christ IS my best pal. And I am so grateful for that. Because I wasn't alone. I wasn't EVER alone. He knows how I felt when I gave my best pals that last hug before I watched them walk away for two years. He knows how I felt when I felt like nobody could understand me. He knows how I felt when I cried the most tears I ever had because I felt utterly alone. He knows, because he is my Savior and I DIDN'T walk that path alone.

IT'S NOT GOING TO BE EASY.

I have no doubt that even after I face this trial that it's going to be hunky dory! Because it's not! I'm still going to feel not only the pain of seeing my brothers out on missions, but also getting through high school. High school is so fun. I love what I've experienced and the friends I've made. But high school is still high school. It's still hard. It's still me and everyone trying to figure out what our futures are mixed with the fun stuff like hormones--boo! But I know that even though high school can be rough, it can still be fun with some of my best pals by my side!

That Moogan girl though. And that Groot kid photoboming with his female friend!

This is Helga's lesser known brother, Steve.

Some people (Tanner) don't want their face painted. Pish posh.

That's what's up. 

This was just funny.

And because okay signs with painted hands is a must. 

I actually don't really know where this picture came from...it kinda just appeared I guess.

All girls! Wait...no yeah all girls.

Tanner's face...

Oh my white pals. 

Because some peoples faces are priceless in this... I'll let you guess who. 

Those gingers though.

Yup. 

Hot Chocolate club. You wish you were us.

~Even though this past week was harder than I ever anticipated it would be, I'm glad I had my best pal, brother, Savior, and Redeemer by my side. Because I know that these next two years are going to be rough, but more than anything, they will be Full of Smiles.~